I’ve been thinking a lot about 14 years old me. I knew exactly who I was, what I wanted from life, and who I wanted to be (at least that’s how I remember it). I read all night long and listened to pop music and the occasional country music and watched Disney Channel all day everyday. 14 year old me wrote witty diary entries about celebrity breakups and tv dramas. She wore blue eye shadow and lived fearlessly. She was unapologetically Khadija.
I’m definitely not the same person I was 10 years ago. I’ve grown up a lot (thank God), I’ve learnt things the hard and easy way, I’ve laughed and cried and somehow lost a little bit of myself to everyone’s expectations (including myself). I forgot how to live fearlessly and be unapologetically me.
So this month I’ve been going back to basics. Going back to all the things I used to love, listening to the High School Musical soundtracks (minus the 3rd one because that movie sucked), going for long walks, sketching, getting lost in a book, going to the park, putting pen to paper, spending hours chatting with my neighbours and just letting go of all expectations. To be as free and fearless as a 14 year old with nothing to loose and everything to gain.
Thank you for reading.